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I'm listening to the same song that once made me very happy, and today I am listening to it hoping it would help me cry in the intensity I'm feeling things inside. I thought I was going to win at love. Turns out I was wrong, he asked me to leave when it was the most fragile, when I was just knitting the fabric of the relationship. I didn't even fully try, was that love, I thought I could've probably won this war. I wasn't even close to winning the battle. 

Wow. my hands are numb. I cant even think of an idea. How do people get out of this. I am losing on all aspects, I forgot a friend, I forgot work, I forgot me. I now know how people are driven into cheating, cutting themselves and giving up. This is a very annoying pain and even worse goodbye. Thank god for personality, character and feminism, everything can now be spoken about to anyone. To not feel judged is something we all care about and now talking is easier if you just reach out there. Someone will grab you. So reach out, people will ease the pain, they always were able to. They will not fail today. 

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