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This is not a Birthday present.

Now that your birthday has passed, I wanted to write something important for you, which is not just on paper or a WhatsApp message, which we have done already and it would be so easy to lose or forget. So I decided to use the power of the internet and the power of a basic day which is not your birthday, so don't expect me to be super nice to you, cuz it's not your birthday anymore, this is not a birthday present; don't forget.

Hi, Rehani, I wish to tell you that the Diwali night we spent reminiscing was amazing, those stored moments are so important to remind us who we are, what relationships we have, it is almost therapy to find yourself when you are lost. Today, if I write again, it was because I really wanted to, just like old times, write to be written about, read to be unforgotten. Our friendship was forged in our early days, which would mean our friendship was deep-rooted and real. We try and we fail multiple times because when we were growing up to be mature adults, we weren't with each other to help make and amend those mistakes and to date, I am very sorry about that. It is a shame that we grew apart the way we did, but guess what- someone once told me to be optimistic to not feel like a victim all the time, to remember that we have this life to break AND fix. Any ending is the beginning of something, and I realized after our Socials date and our Diwali meet and the meetings in the middle that we are starting to learn something new about our relationship and even making efforts for this to last longer. I guess it is safe to say that we were on a BREAK.

We should celebrate that, as we celebrate you today(yesterday). For me, we celebrate being you every day, we don't need birthdays for that. I mean technically you should be celebrating every day else that you've survived than celebrating the easiest day to be born in this life. Assuming all good days are the days you don't remember. 😭

I wanted to mark this year 2021, to be that year where I asked YOU permission to make you my dear friend, someone I already hold very close to my heart, but this time ask you if I could take the liberty to be called your close friend again? Could you add me to your list of crying shoulders again? Call me when you need me, sick or drunk, cute or angry. Make me Watson to your Sherlock, I definitely would like to crack the mysteries of life with you ;) ;) If we don't hang out as much as normal friends do, that is okay because I think we function like that what is more important is that you are there in the most important moments of my life, and I am for yours. I want to be a part of your life Rehani, would you take me to be one?


For as long as it has been, I remember being that person who annoys you into doing things, but this time around, as long as your heart doesn't say it, I would say don't do it. I am behind the concept of if you don't feel like trying to do things, it's best you don't, because it's highly possible that you aren't ready. I am with you, I want to be, I have a weird system and I honestly grew up like that, my parents are hardly the people who go out with their friends all the time. They are very comfortable hanging out with just the three of us and it makes it difficult for them to adjust with other people and their opinions. I realised this late, but once we have moved out of our existing lives, we have no clue where we might end up, and as it is we don't even get enough playground time these days to make the most of our time in life and that is why the extra effort always helps. Humans are complicated as is, but everyone enjoys and cherishes the people who have been with them in the highs and lows of their lives. I do not want to think that this is an attempt to hang on to whatever we had, but to see this as a fresh chapter with blank pages and to write a new story to make that choice that changes our life course. I have made a fair share of mistakes, and you deserve your time out too. I hope your day was wonderful as you are. I wish only the best for this amazing soul. Happy Birthday, my dear dear friend, I wish you all the happiness in the world and hope to share all of them for the rest of our lives. 

Hopefully, I played my part in making your birthday super boring, so you could come to terms with the fact that every day is worth celebrating if it's with you💜

Cheers to being Rehani Singhi! New Photos or not, I know the moments we have together are worth more than a couple of images, and we are the last people to have to prove to the world that we are good with each other. (Our parents know, permission sorted hai zindagi mein 😆)

Love you. 

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